January 1, 2019.

I woke up feeling G R E A T this morning! Its something about a New Year that makes you feel like its a clean slate. Yes, the same sun will rise and set, but its the first day of a new 365 days. I didn’t want to go out of 2018 with a party, being turned up, drunk, and high as ever. I really did want a


So what am I changing? What are my cliche resolutions for 2019? Well, its not much. Actually its pretty simple, and I only have 5.

  1. S T O P being friends with Mary Jane (no smoking).
  2. S T O P indulging in other peoples drama.
  3. G A I N self control
  4. T R A V E L!
  5. save, save, S A V E!

Pretty simple right?

I think the only part I struggle with the most is number 1. See, Mary Jane found me at a very vulnerable and messy time. N O, I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with a little weed here and there. But I do believe it can get out of control if you let it, just like any other addiction. Yes you heard me, addiction.

I knew it was a problem when I told myself multiple times “OK we’re not going to smoke today” (yes that’s me talking to me), but yet I still ended up rolling a L before the end of the day.

I was so disappointed in myself.

So for 2019 I promised myself that I wasn’t going to do it until I felt strong enough to have some self control. At first, I smoked because I was always in pain and it seemed to have helped. I no longer had chronicle headaches, no more back pain, no more hip pain, no more pain. It also helped me with stress. No more worrying, complaining, nagging, or trying to control everything.

I was a smooth sailing human being 😊

Until I realized this is getting expensive and now I’m just doing it to do it, not because I necessarily need it. So I decided its time to S T O P. But I learned something about myself at that very moment.

I don’t have any self control, I cant stop. 🤦‍♀️

So you know what I did?

So this year My most focused resolution is to stop smoking. I don’t know for how long, maybe a few months, maybe forever.

But I just want to see how my body will react and see if marijuana really did help my body pains and migraines like I thought. In Cali and other places marijuana is legal and used for medical purposes. Marijuana has also saved the lives of people who suffer with chronic pain and seizures. This is why I don’t see it as a crime or wrong. But I will say, it can getting out of control if you let it, just like any “too good” of a thing, so here goes.

Wish me luck 🤞